A little something to remember...

Courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day that says,
"I will try again tomorrow."

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

lincoln center

The LA company of WHITE CHRISTMAS is being recorded for archival in the Lincoln Center Performing Arts Library. It's such an honor for the company! I'm not in the show, but it's great to be a part of something that's going in the library.

Monday, December 05, 2005

WC-December 4

I made my debut as 'Jimmy' tonight in White Christmas. Jimmy's a small part in the show, but he has a few lines. I had a great time. This show is so much fun to swing. Pics coming soon.

Wednesday, November 30, 2005


After stuffing myself silly at Thanksgiving dinner with the LA White Christmas orphans, I ventured out to The Dome in LA to see RENT, Jonathan Larson's groundbreaking musical about the lives of a group of friends in New York City in the 1990's.

The actors in the film are almost all the same as the original Broadway cast. A smart choice by the director. Noteable additions to the cast include Rosario Dawson and Tracie Thoms. I had heard Tracie sing on the talk shows when they were making their rounds, so I knew she could sing. I was, however, blown away by Rosario Dawson. I went in skeptical and came out a fan. Her singing was terrific and she's a wonderful actress to boot.

Now, Christopher Columbus. He missed the boat with this one. I feel the dialogue in the movie could have used a little more work. Most of the dialogue consists of lyrics from the musical being spoken. A technique I found quite annoying. People don't speak in rhyming prose, so I found this hard to watch.

Overall, I enjoyed the performances. I think the story would have been served much better had the entire movie been told through Mark's eyes. It's a shame that such a wonderful piece of musical history is preserved on film in the manner Christopher Columbus envisioned it.

Sunday, November 27, 2005

my first performance

I made my White Christmas debut tonight. One of our guys called out sick tonight, so I got put on. With a bit of stress and a lot of help from the dance captains, I made it thru. No one got hurt! The entire cast was sooooo supportive tonight. It was thrilling to have cast members in the wings giving me their energy as I danced. After the curtain came down, a sea of bodies dressed in red came straight for me, offering hugs and congratulations. It was a nice way to end the evening. I will never forget the outpouring of support for me tonight. Thank you LA cast're a dream come true!

As always, my performance coulda been better. Little bobbles happened, but overall, I was happy with the performance I gave tonight. If you're in LA....come see the show!!! I promise you'll be glad you did!

Sunday, November 20, 2005

White Christmas Cast Photo

Here's a picture of the cast in the lobby of the Pantages. We're on a break from tech rehearsal. I was actually on for one of the dancers which is why I'm in costume.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

WC-tech day three

Just got back from dinner break. We are mid-way thru teching Act Two. We are so ahead of schedule, that at times it doesn't even feel like a typical tech. Thankfully, the design team is way ahead of schedule since San Fran teched last week.

The show is in great shape. I sit in the house watching the dance numbers in amazement. The costumes, sets, lights....everything is coming together to make this special show absolutely unbelievable.

I'll post pictures soon. For now, I must get back to working on my swing charts.

Monday, November 14, 2005

10 out of 12 - day 1

Sitting in the house of the Pantages watching tech for White Christmas. The show is amazing!! Tech is going relatively smoothly so far.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Still dreaming...

The LA cast of White Christmas leaves NYC Saturday to begin tech for the show. The rehearsal process has been wonderful. It's crazy to think that 3 companies of the same show have all been rehearsed and shipped out in six weeks.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

my age

You Are 27 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

Monday, October 17, 2005

WC-day one

White Christmas
Day One
10:00 am

We all convened at 890 Broadway to meet the various casts and creative team members. It takes a village to put three companies of this show up. Such a wonderful energy in the room as 90 employed actors started making their way in. When Walter Bobbie spoke to the company about the show, I found myself a little bit in awe feeling so blessed about this opportunity. We saw the sets and costumes, then started all the first day Equity paperwork. Always a good time.

In addition to the four leads from last year, we have Ruth Williamson and David Ogden Stiers in our company. We also found out that our cast is opening the Hollywood Christmas Parade....televised nationally. The next few months will be incredible!

After lunch, the Boston and LA companies began learning 'Let Yourself Go'. Randy Skinner's choreography is nothing short of AMAZING! Lots of fun rhythms and footwork. This man channels MGM style like no other.

At the end of the day everyone's quads were sore and our dogs were barking from the pounding our feet took. Nothing a nice warm foot bath can't fix.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

we did it!!!


That's the final total we raised for the American Red Cross while we were in Cincinnati. It's funny that we raised so much for Houston's chapter for helping evacuees, when the Houston area will need the money now for Hurricane Rita.

We are being moved out of Houston tomorrow. No details yet, but word on the street says Dallas maybe.

Sunday, September 11, 2005



That is the total for week one of collecting for the American Red Cross in Cincinnati. My fellow castmates of EVITA and the community of Cincinnati have really stepped up to the plate to make this happen. Thank you to each and everyone who has volunteered time collecting and counting. A big thank you to the citizens of Cincinnati. A huge thank you to Fifth Third Bank! They are giving us cashier's checks at no charge, so we don't have to transport thousands of dollars to Houston.

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Katrina Relief

The cast of EVITA raised $2470.99 our first night of collecting for the American Red Cross. We're shooting to raise $20,000 before we leave Cincinnati.

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Katrina Relief

As I am currently on tour, it is difficult for me to help with the relief work for the displaced families affected by Hurricane Katrina. My heart goes out to each and every person and family who lost their homes, friends, and family.

Please consider donating money to one of the following aid organizations:

American Red Cross

Habitat For Humanity
Salvation Army
World Vision
The Actors' Fund

I placed The Actors' Fund on the list, because they do extraordinary work helping actors across America. There were a number of theaters affected by Katrina, so there are no doubt actors in need of aid as well.

Thank you for digging into your pockets to help.

Thursday, July 14, 2005

offical announcement

It's official. I will be performing in the LA company of 'White Christmas' this winter at the Pantages Theatre. I finally get to spend a winter in a warm climate after winters in Switzerland, Moscow, Chicago, and New York. Brrrr. Maybe I'll layout on Christmas Eve.

You can check the schedule and get info on tickets at the White Christmas Website.

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

San Diego

Here is a shot of me as a soldier in EVITA. Figured I'd share it with y'all. Made it to San Diego safely. The flight wasn't half bad. Just loooong.

Sunday, July 10, 2005

launch party!!!

It's official. My new website is up and running. Please check it out and let me know what you think so far. I'm still adding content, so be patient. All the galleries will be up soon.

I'm heading to San Diego tomorrow with the tour of EVITA. I'll be there a week. I'm looking forward to getting there, but not to the actual act of flying there. I despise flying.

Tuesday, July 05, 2005


Just curious how we can let one person take so much control over our emotions. I met this great person, who has consumed my thoughts since we met. Only something happened a few days ago, making me question lots of things. Unfortunately, I've begun to question my self-worth. Feeling like I'm not good enough. Not smart enough. Not cute enough. Etc, etc, etc. It's horrible to know that one person can cause all these awful thoughts. Why do we put ourselves through hell in the attempt to find happiness? Is it so we appreciate the good when we find it? And, what if we never find happiness? Are we stuck with nothing but a bunch of sleepless nights?

Saturday, July 02, 2005


Last night, my new friend Ben and I went to see Bewitched. Gotta support Ms. Kidman. I adore her. She's so cute in this heartwarming, feel good flick. I'm a pushover for romantic comedies though. Go ahead. Call me a hopeless romantic....I don't care.

Saw the preview for RENT last night. It looks like it's going to be a brilliant film. I can't wait to see it.

Went to the beach a little sunburn on my back. Not sure how, since I applied sunblock with an SPF of 30 every hour.

So....I found out today that a new acceptable plural form for fish is in: I have two fishes in my aquarium. Why do things have to change? That sounds so incredibly unintelligent. Call me old fashioned, but I'm gonna stick to fish singular and plural.

Monday, June 20, 2005


bares-bwayworld, originally uploaded by nycdncrboy.

We're having a crazy hair contest. I think Brad wins with his Louise Mandrell hair.


matt-jermaine-paul, originally uploaded by nycdncrboy.

Here's a pic of Jermaine Rembert, Paul McGill and me.

Broadway Bares

matt-joey-charlie, originally uploaded by nycdncrboy.

Here's a picture of Joey Dudding, Charlie Sutton and myself in costume for Broadway Bares XV: Rxxx.

Sunday, June 12, 2005


I just accepted the national tour of EVITA. I'll be going in as an immediate replacement. I start rehearsals on Tuesday the 21st of June and I'm scheduled to open on the 24th. I'm so excited to hit the road again in my third show by Andrew Lloyd Weber.

Saturday, June 11, 2005

gogo boys @ splash

IMG_1098, originally uploaded by nycdncrboy. we are in all our glory. Shakin' it for the cause. We raised nearly $1400 and sold $500 worth of tickets for Broadway Bares. We had a ton of fun too.

Saturday, June 04, 2005

on the piano

_J0I9063, originally uploaded by nycdncrboy.

So, my friend Mark came to FAO today and took some pictures of my show. Figured I'd post a pic of what I do. Enjoy.

the things i do for BCEFA

So....Thursday night I'll be go-go dancing at SBNY (Splash) to raise money for Broadway Cares/Equity Fights AIDS. All the tips I raise will go to my account for the Broadway Bares Strip-A-Thon. C'mon out and stuff singles, fivers, or tenners in my panties for a good cause.

Don't forget that Broadway Bares is on June 19 at Roseland Ballroom. I won't be stripping, but I'll be a topless drag queen. Not quite sure how they're gonna pull our tits off, but we'll see.

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Broadway Bares's official. I'm doing Broadway Bares this year. Looks like I'll be back in drag for BC/EFA.....the number is called 'Candystrippers' and features Brad Musgrove. I can't wait!

I need help. Please donate to support me in the Strip-a-thon. Follow the link below, and be sure to enter my name: Matthew Kilgore so I get credit.

Thanks in advance for your support.

The AIDS Walk New York is this weekend. I met my goal of $1000, and I can't wait to walk.

Thursday, May 05, 2005

I DID IT!!!!

I met my goal of $1000 for the AIDS WALK NEW YORK! Thanks to all my friends and family who generously donated money to support me.

I found out today that I'll be shakin' it in Broadway Bares this year. Stay tuned for details.


Tuesday, April 19, 2005

she's got legz....

IMG_1065a-small, originally uploaded by nycdncrboy.


Monday, April 18, 2005

soccer mom band

IMG_1026_1, originally uploaded by nycdncrboy.

Working on our new hit single in the studio.

drag 2

IMG_1031, originally uploaded by nycdncrboy.

Just a simple girl with a dream.


IMG_1032, originally uploaded by nycdncrboy.

Here's me in full beat for Easter Bonnet 2005. After we danced the boys whipped out our cameras and had a spontaneous photo shoot.

Sunday, April 17, 2005

miss doris

An article came out today about Doris Eaton Travis' return to the New Amsterdam Theatre for BC/EFA's Easter Bonnet Competition. This is the picture that was posted on Yahoo news.

I'm the leggy one in the background.

Thursday, April 14, 2005

doris eaton travis

At today's rehearsal for the Easter Bonnet competition, we shared the stage with Doris Eaton Travis, the oldest living Ziegfeld lady. She's 101 and spry nimble as ever. I got a little teary because, from the back, she looks identical to my grandmother.

Here's a little info about Doris that I found online:

Doris Eaton Travis, who resides in Norman, Oklahoma, is enjoying her third career at age ninety-nine. The first was as a dancer and actress, with three years in the Ziegfeld Follies. The second was as the owner and operator of the nation's largest chain of Arthur Murray dance studios. And the third, with her late husband, Paul Travis, was running a quarter-horse ranch, which she continues to operate today. In 1992, at age eight-eight, she became the oldest graduate of the University of Oklahoma, where she majored in history.

At age fourteen, Doris Eaton was the youngest performer in the Ziegfeld Follies, appearing with such legends as Eddie Cantor, Fanny Brice, Will Rogers, and Marilyn Miller. With two sisters and two brothers also appearing in the Follies in the years between 1918 and 1923, the Eatons became a well-known Broadway family.

Beginning their careers in the Washington, D.C., and Baltimore area, the "Seven Little Eatons" became seasoned performers, working the stock-company circuit before arriving in New York City and being caught up in the golden age of Broadway. Doris and her two sisters, Pearl and Mary, became popular dancers, and throughout the twenties they were never out of work. Doris was the first Eaton to go to Hollywood, and there in 1929 she introduced the song "Singing in the Rain" in the Hollywood Music Box Review. Later, Doris left show business and went on to great success building a chain of eighteen Arthur Murray studios in Michigan, which she owned and operated for thirty years.

britney's pregnant

Of all the things I've heard on the news this week, Britney Spears' pregnancy concerns me the most. The pop tart who got drunk, ended up marrying some guy in Vegas, having it annulled 48 hours later, chain smokes, visits public places barefoot, etc, etc, going to be a mother?!?!?!?

Let's speak for a moment about people in this country who cannot get married because our national leaders are afraid of ruining the sanctity of marriage. These same people also have a very difficult time adopting children even though they could provide a wonderful home full of a loving environment in which to raise a child. But, it's ok for someone like Britney Spears to get married and have it annulled. And now she's having a child?

What's with America? The land of the free? Yeah, right.

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

my feet hurt

Yesterday I spent 4 hours in heels at rehearsal for Easter Bonnet then spent 3 1/2 hours at FAO jumping on a piano. I got home last night and my feet were hurting so badly.

It's worth it though. Easter Bonnet is gonna be great. Rehearsal was cancelled today, but we have lots of rehearsal the rest of the week. We tech the opening on Friday. I'm so excited I can barely contain myself.

FAO and the magazine are going far as day jobs go. My temp agency and the magazine messed up my payroll, so I haven't been paid in 3 weeks. I'm also awaiting a check from an audition I played for 3 weeks ago. I wonder why people don't see it as a priority to get pay figured out. It has sure put me in a bind the past few weeks.

Friday, April 08, 2005

day one...

My first day on the big piano was a success! I worked with Matt, Mike, Tym, and Dani. I had a great time with the kids....everyone is so wonderful. My best friend Shanna and her boyfriend Marty came to see my final show tonight. I'll post some pictures soon.

I work at FAO all weekend, then start rehearsals for Easter Bonnet again on Tuesday.

Easter Bonnet

My feet are killing me from the combination of rehearsals for Easter Bonnet and rehearsals for the piano at FAO Schwartz. At least I don't have to wear the 3 inch heels for Easter Bonnet when I dance on the piano. Both things are equally fun, but equally hard on the body.

Please come to Easter Bonnet. Show your support for a great cause and see a great show in the process. Click the following link to purchase tickets.


Sunday, April 03, 2005

broadway....sort of

I got some great news today. In two weeks, I will be joining the boys/girls of 'La Cage' in the opening number of the 2005 BC/EFA Easter Bonnet Competition. I begin rehearsals on Tuesday. Get fitted for costumes and heels on Monday. I'm sooooo excited to even be onstage with these amazing group of dancers.

Remember that audition for the piano dancer at FAO Schwartz? I got the job. I also got a job bartending at Broadway shows.

Don't forget to donate to AIDS WALK NY.

Friday, April 01, 2005

I felt BIG!

Do you remember the movie BIG with Tom Hanks? Well, tonight I got to dance on the big piano at FAO Schwartz. I was auditioning to be one of the dancers that entertain the masses at the flagship store in NYC. Cross your fingers for me. I've played piano for 22 years, but this time I had to do it with my feet on a 20 foot long, 3 octave piano. It was a blast. I would love to get this job.

Please don't forget to donate to the AIDS Walk New York.

Thursday, March 31, 2005

I need your help to...


What epidemic? The AIDS epidemic.

Please help me reach my goal of raising $1000 for the 2005 AIDS Walk NY.

It's easy. Donate.

AIDS Walk New York is held every May. It is a 10K walk to raise funds to fight AIDS and help those living with HIV and AIDS.

Wednesday, March 30, 2005


Ever have something in your life that is of utmost importance yet takes a great deal of time and effort to finish? Always put it off til the last minute? Ever feel like putting if off indefinitely?

This is how I feel about laundry.'s that time of the week. Time to go to the laundromat. Ugh.

Tuesday, March 29, 2005


I think they got the wrong Matthew.



Name / Username:

Name Acronym Generator

Monday, March 28, 2005

rainy days and mondays always get me down's Monday and it's pouring rain. I'll let you guess my demeanor today. I started my new job today. Kinda fun....mostly monotonous mindless labor. I did a mailing and organized cabinets. Doesn't get much more exciting than that. Everyone in the office is incredibly nice though, so that makes the busy work bearable.

I ran into my friend Dante today on my lunch break. Apparently we work in the same building. Go figure. Of all the buildings in Manhattan. This city never ceases to amaze me.

Spring needs to get here fast because my allergies and sinuses have no idea what's going on. I have a nose that seems to think it's a faucet and eyes that feel like they're made of broken glass. I need to just invest in some Claritin and hope that does the trick.

Back to this rain.....GO AWAY!!!!! It's been cold and dreary for far too long.

Sunday, March 27, 2005

more temp-tations

It's Easter Sunday, and I'm sitting behind a desk at the real estate office again. So far in the past hour, I've read the NY Times online, researched some dance classes I want to start taking, and answered one phone call. Looks like a slow day in the making. I find myself thinking ahead to lunch and where and what I'm going to eat. I'll probably mosey over to the Seaport again and eat in the food court like I did yesterday. It was so packed there yesterday, I had to stand by a window and eat my slice of pizza.

I have seven more hours to go.

I start my new job as a marketing assistant for Lifestyle Media, Inc. tomorrow morning. I'm looking forward to this new endeavor.

Saturday, March 26, 2005

your new addiction

This afternoon, Nancy (an agent at the real estate office) and I began talking about a former client of hers....Jocelyne Wildenstein (aka The Cat Woman). Apparently, she elected to have plastic surgery to make her look more cat-like.

After viewing the pictures of her, I began to poke around on and was horrified at what I saw. But, it was like watching a train wreck, I couldn't stop looking at it.

Welcome to your new addiction. Thank me later.

my favorite quote

Courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day that says, "I will try again tomorrow."


Today, I sit behind a desk in the management office of an apartment building where I could never afford to live. The building is brand new and simply stunning. Being a holiday weekend, things are very slow, but I don't mind. I'm reading the newspaper, sipping tea, and chatting with people in the office. Quite a lovely way to spend the day....oh, and I'm getting paid. Added bonus.

One of the rental agents told me about an apartment she was shown earlier that costs a mere $40,000.00 a month to rent. I could pay for one month rent with one and a half years of my total yearly income. It's hard to believe that there are people who would pay $40K to rent when they clearly could afford to buy a ginormous place to live. And why can't those rich people give me a few thousand on which to live? Oh each his own.

Friday, March 25, 2005

love or selfishness?

Everyday I read more about the Terri Schiavo case, and cringe a little more. Her parents seem so dead set on keeping the memory of their daughter alive through her body that lies in a vegetative state. If her parents are so certain that Terri would want to live in this condition, maybe they should begin feeding her liquids. If Terri has the will to live, she will drink them. The sad fact is, if the feeding tube remained in place, Terri could live for years as she has for the past fifteen. What comes into question is her quality of life. Sure, her body is alive, but is her spirit? If she was to walk into her own hospice room to see herself unable to walk, confined to a bed, being fed liquid sustenance through a tube inserted into her abdomen...would she want to continue living this way?

I know I would much prefer to not have tubes keeping me 'alive'. Being confined to a bed and kept alive through a hole in my abdomen is no way of life for me.

Perhaps, her parents should take a step back and put themselves in Terri's shoes. Are they really making decisions in her best interest, or are they making decisions based on their own selfishness?

Thursday, March 24, 2005

2 things I hate...

Today I did two things I absolutely despise.

1. Taxes - the worst. Plain and simple. Every year taxes serve one tell me exactly how poor I am. I look at the numbers and wonder just how I scrape by. This year I don't even get a refund to spend. The refund I'm getting is going right back to the state of New York.

2. Laundry - a close second to the worst. When I'm at home visiting my family in Indiana, I don't mind doing laundry. In fact, sometimes I do little, tiny loads just because I can. In New York, laundry is a different story. Sort the clothes on the kitchen floor, bag 'em up, schlep 'em all the way to the laundromat, entertain yourself while the clothes are washing and drying, fold them on the tiniest tables known to man, bag 'em up again, schlep 'em back home, and then put them away. This week I have to have two laundry days because I put off laundry for three weeks. I just washed my light clothes. The darks'll have to wait 'til I find some more patience.

Sunday, March 20, 2005


I love it when I meet someone that makes me smile.

Sunday, March 13, 2005


create your personalized map of europe


create your own personalized map of the USA


create your own visited country map


As someone pointed out, I haven't updated this journal in forever. He also suggested I update my photo. So....there's my new headshot.

I'm back in NYC auditioning like it's my job. kinda is. Offers are starting to come in for summer work. Stay tuned to find out where I'll be vacationing...I mean, working this summer.

Friday, January 28, 2005


It's Friday....and what a week it's been. Auditions, rehearsals, trips to Boston, more auditions, callbacks, and finally a day to rest. Too bad I have to do laundry today because I'm out of clothes. Very happy to be back in the wonderful town called New York City! What an energy this place has....even with 15 inches of snow.

Sunday, January 16, 2005

Hotlanta's been a long time since I posted on here. Currently, I am in Atlanta, GA playing a dancing Whisk in Disney's BEAUTY AND THE BEAST. I've met some really great people in the cast. We're having a lot of fun, but alas, the show closes today. I'm off to NYC tomorrow.