A little something to remember...

Courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day that says,
"I will try again tomorrow."

Thursday, March 31, 2005

I need your help to...


What epidemic? The AIDS epidemic.

Please help me reach my goal of raising $1000 for the 2005 AIDS Walk NY.

It's easy. Donate.

AIDS Walk New York is held every May. It is a 10K walk to raise funds to fight AIDS and help those living with HIV and AIDS.

Wednesday, March 30, 2005


Ever have something in your life that is of utmost importance yet takes a great deal of time and effort to finish? Always put it off til the last minute? Ever feel like putting if off indefinitely?

This is how I feel about laundry.'s that time of the week. Time to go to the laundromat. Ugh.

Tuesday, March 29, 2005


I think they got the wrong Matthew.



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Monday, March 28, 2005

rainy days and mondays always get me down's Monday and it's pouring rain. I'll let you guess my demeanor today. I started my new job today. Kinda fun....mostly monotonous mindless labor. I did a mailing and organized cabinets. Doesn't get much more exciting than that. Everyone in the office is incredibly nice though, so that makes the busy work bearable.

I ran into my friend Dante today on my lunch break. Apparently we work in the same building. Go figure. Of all the buildings in Manhattan. This city never ceases to amaze me.

Spring needs to get here fast because my allergies and sinuses have no idea what's going on. I have a nose that seems to think it's a faucet and eyes that feel like they're made of broken glass. I need to just invest in some Claritin and hope that does the trick.

Back to this rain.....GO AWAY!!!!! It's been cold and dreary for far too long.

Sunday, March 27, 2005

more temp-tations

It's Easter Sunday, and I'm sitting behind a desk at the real estate office again. So far in the past hour, I've read the NY Times online, researched some dance classes I want to start taking, and answered one phone call. Looks like a slow day in the making. I find myself thinking ahead to lunch and where and what I'm going to eat. I'll probably mosey over to the Seaport again and eat in the food court like I did yesterday. It was so packed there yesterday, I had to stand by a window and eat my slice of pizza.

I have seven more hours to go.

I start my new job as a marketing assistant for Lifestyle Media, Inc. tomorrow morning. I'm looking forward to this new endeavor.

Saturday, March 26, 2005

your new addiction

This afternoon, Nancy (an agent at the real estate office) and I began talking about a former client of hers....Jocelyne Wildenstein (aka The Cat Woman). Apparently, she elected to have plastic surgery to make her look more cat-like.

After viewing the pictures of her, I began to poke around on and was horrified at what I saw. But, it was like watching a train wreck, I couldn't stop looking at it.

Welcome to your new addiction. Thank me later.

my favorite quote

Courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day that says, "I will try again tomorrow."


Today, I sit behind a desk in the management office of an apartment building where I could never afford to live. The building is brand new and simply stunning. Being a holiday weekend, things are very slow, but I don't mind. I'm reading the newspaper, sipping tea, and chatting with people in the office. Quite a lovely way to spend the day....oh, and I'm getting paid. Added bonus.

One of the rental agents told me about an apartment she was shown earlier that costs a mere $40,000.00 a month to rent. I could pay for one month rent with one and a half years of my total yearly income. It's hard to believe that there are people who would pay $40K to rent when they clearly could afford to buy a ginormous place to live. And why can't those rich people give me a few thousand on which to live? Oh each his own.

Friday, March 25, 2005

love or selfishness?

Everyday I read more about the Terri Schiavo case, and cringe a little more. Her parents seem so dead set on keeping the memory of their daughter alive through her body that lies in a vegetative state. If her parents are so certain that Terri would want to live in this condition, maybe they should begin feeding her liquids. If Terri has the will to live, she will drink them. The sad fact is, if the feeding tube remained in place, Terri could live for years as she has for the past fifteen. What comes into question is her quality of life. Sure, her body is alive, but is her spirit? If she was to walk into her own hospice room to see herself unable to walk, confined to a bed, being fed liquid sustenance through a tube inserted into her abdomen...would she want to continue living this way?

I know I would much prefer to not have tubes keeping me 'alive'. Being confined to a bed and kept alive through a hole in my abdomen is no way of life for me.

Perhaps, her parents should take a step back and put themselves in Terri's shoes. Are they really making decisions in her best interest, or are they making decisions based on their own selfishness?

Thursday, March 24, 2005

2 things I hate...

Today I did two things I absolutely despise.

1. Taxes - the worst. Plain and simple. Every year taxes serve one tell me exactly how poor I am. I look at the numbers and wonder just how I scrape by. This year I don't even get a refund to spend. The refund I'm getting is going right back to the state of New York.

2. Laundry - a close second to the worst. When I'm at home visiting my family in Indiana, I don't mind doing laundry. In fact, sometimes I do little, tiny loads just because I can. In New York, laundry is a different story. Sort the clothes on the kitchen floor, bag 'em up, schlep 'em all the way to the laundromat, entertain yourself while the clothes are washing and drying, fold them on the tiniest tables known to man, bag 'em up again, schlep 'em back home, and then put them away. This week I have to have two laundry days because I put off laundry for three weeks. I just washed my light clothes. The darks'll have to wait 'til I find some more patience.

Sunday, March 20, 2005


I love it when I meet someone that makes me smile.

Sunday, March 13, 2005


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As someone pointed out, I haven't updated this journal in forever. He also suggested I update my photo. So....there's my new headshot.

I'm back in NYC auditioning like it's my job. kinda is. Offers are starting to come in for summer work. Stay tuned to find out where I'll be vacationing...I mean, working this summer.