A little something to remember...

Courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day that says,
"I will try again tomorrow."

Monday, December 31, 2007


out with the old...

where did 2007 go? it seems like just last week i was getting dressed up to go ring in the new year with my cast of 'white christmas' in st. paul, mn. now, one year later, i'll be doing the same thing in a few hours.

the older i get the faster time seems to whiz by. when i was a child, it seemed like it took ages to get from one birthday or one christmas to the next. now, it seems like all i have to do is blink and i'm another year older or it's time to start christmas shopping again. how i wish i could slow time back down!

as my 86 year old grandma says, 'time doesn't stop for anyone.' how true, how true.

Sunday, December 30, 2007

One more week...

Irving Berlin's White Christmas closes next Saturday! It's been a rough year with the Toronto company. While I truly love the show, I'm going to be happy to put it to bed this year. I'm looking forward to the new year and the prospects it brings! Feeling very anxious to return to NYC, to my apartment, to my roommates. I hope you all have a wonderful New Year! Have fun and be safe!

Saturday, December 29, 2007


Who knew a spicy chicken sandwich from Wendy's could be poison. Apparently, it can. I was sick with a touch of food poisoning last night. No fun.

Thursday, December 27, 2007

And the winner is...

HNT #33

Thanks for all the votes. Happy end of the year.


This is my vote for the year's best HNT. Use the HNT link at the bottom of this post to view all of them, and let me know which you think is the best. I'll post the winner on Friday.

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Happy Boxing Day

Boxing Day isn't Boxing Day in the's simply the day after Christmas. I've learned in my short time in Canada, that it's a very big deal here. Not quite sure what it is exactly, but it seems that it's a day when all the stores offer big consumer holiday. It would be more fun if everyone busted out their boxing gloves and went to town.

Just another day...

Today felt like any other day...except for the fact that I called home a few times to talk to everyone in my family. It was nice to find out about their day and how they were celebrating Christmas. I had to put on the strong "I'm doing ok" voice, so as not to upset anyone and inadvertently ruin their festive holiday spirit even though I couldn't have been more depressed today. Spending Christmas, or any other typical family holiday away from your close family is difficult. Even walking to the Christmas party my friend hosted, I saw families arriving at parties together, I saw families leaving parties together, I even saw billboards that show couples happily decorating for the holidays together. Even though I had a place to go for Christmas, it's not the same as waking up and walking into the living room to see the family Christmas tree and getting to spend quality time with the family.

I'm thankful that I at least had friends to spend the holiday with, but it's still hard to be away from the family. So, here I sit....alone, typing this entry for my blog in front of the fireplace looking at my 15" silver tinsel Christmas tree, and reminiscing about the Christmas mornings I spent with my mom, stepdad, grandma, and brother....and really wishing I could do that again.

Tuesday, December 25, 2007


Santa didn't make it to visit me this year. Either I've been bad, or he got caught up with all the other hotties, and forgot to deliver presents. Gotta admit, I wouldn't blame him for getting caught up with these boys.

Saturday, December 22, 2007

I'll Be Home For Christmas

I can't tell you how many times I've heard this song over the past couple of days. The song always makes me a little weepy, but especially this year. This is the third year in a row I haven't been home for Christmas because I'm away working on a show. Usually my family is able to make a visit close to the holidays which makes up for me not being home, but this year, that's not happening. I'm alone in Canada away from the ones I love and care about. Makes for a depressing holiday.

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

HNT #36

5 days til Christmas!!! I love theme HNT!!! Happy HNT!!! Let me know what you think.

I'm supposed to list 3 Christmas wishes.

1. Peace in this's 2007, man has been on earth for how many years, and we still can't figure out that we all have 2 arms, 2 legs, 10 fingers, 10 toes, we all eat, we all fart, we all poop. We're not that different at all. Let's just get over ourselves and stop blowing each other up.

2. Health, wealth, love, and happiness for all of my friends.

3. That I could be home with my family this Christmas. I've not spent Christmas with my family in 3 years since I've been away working on the same show every holiday season. It's tough when December 25th rolls around, and I wake up thousands of miles from the people I love and care about most.

you can take the girl out of the country, but not the country out of the girl...

Report: Britney Spears' 16-year-old sister pregnant

NEW YORK (AP) -- Another Spears baby is reportedly on the way -- and it's not Britney's.

Jamie Lynn Spears, the 16-year-old "Zoey 101" star and sister of Britney, told OK! magazine that she's pregnant and that the father is her boyfriend, Casey Aldridge.

"It was a shock for both of us, so unexpected," she said. "I was in complete and total shock and so was he."

Spears is 12 weeks along and initially kept the news to herself when she learned of the pregnancy from an at-home test and subsequent doctor visit, she told the celebrity magazine, which hits stands in New York on Wednesday and the rest of the country by Friday.

What message does she want to send to other teens about premarital sex? "I definitely don't think it's something you should do; it's better to wait," she told the magazine. "But I can't be judgmental because it's a position I put myself in."

After she found out from a doctor that she was pregnant, she said, "I took two weeks to myself where I didn't tell anybody."

"Only one of my friends knew because I needed to work out what I would do for myself before I let anyone's opinion affect my decision. Then I told my parents and my friends. I was scared, but I had to do what was right for me," she said.

Spears broke the news to her mother, Lynne, just before Thanksgiving, the magazine reported.

"She was very upset because it wasn't what she expected at all," Spears said. "A week after, she had time to cope with it and became very supportive."

Lynne Spears, already grandmother to Britney's young sons, told the magazine: "I didn't believe it because Jamie Lynn's always been so conscientious. She's never late for her curfew. I was in shock. I mean, this is my 16-year-old baby."

She said her actress daughter, the telegenic heroine of her popular Nickelodeon series, has known Aldridge for years and began dating him in high school.

But in a recent interview with The Associated Press, Spears said she had no steady boyfriend. "I kind of just keep my options open," she said. "I have a bunch of friends that I always hang out with, a bunch of guy friends." She declined to talk about her older sister.

Spears spoke to the AP shortly before Thanksgiving, the day she told OK! she informed her mother about the pregnancy.

Jamie Lynn plans to raise the baby in her home state of Louisiana -- "so it can have a normal family life."

Nickelodeon released a statement: "We respect Jamie Lynn's decision to take responsibility in this sensitive and personal situation. We know this is a very difficult time for her and her family, and our primary concern right now is for Jamie Lynn's well being."

A publicist for the network did not immediately respond to phone and e-mail requests for additional comment.

"Zoey 101" is scheduled to conclude its third season January 4 with a cliffhanger episode in which Spears' character must decide whether to leave her fictional Pacific Coast Academy boarding school in California to join her parents in London.

The show is scheduled to resume in February, and its producer, Dan Schneider, has said filming on the fourth season has already been completed.

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

tonsil tuesday

i have a swollen right tonsil. that's why my throat has been hurting. i noticed it yesterday. no white spots or splotches on it. so, after comparing it to a bunch of photos online and consulting web md, it appears that i have a non-bacteria case of tonsilitis. what does one do for that? gargle with salt water. they can't give an antibiotic for a non-bacteria because it won't do any good.

my throat looks like the one on the right.

so...i'm taking every over the counter medicine known to man with some echinacea and goldenseal thrown in for good measure. now i'm gargling with NaCl so hopefully it'll get back to normal soon!!

Monday, December 17, 2007


i don't even know if that's a word, but i've decided the general pedestrian populous of toronto are generally rude. at least in nyc, people bustle around, but they generally have an idea of spatial awareness. not people in toronto. these people will barrel toward you in a game of pedestrian chicken even if you're pinned against a wall with no where to go....they'd rather run into you than step over a foot...excuse me...a meter...or is that metre....i don't know...or two. ugh....get me back to new york.

*i might be lumping all people from toronto into the same group, but just know that i work with a bunch of wonderful people from toronto. the people i'm referring to are the ones who will mow you down after making eye contact, or the ones who will walk out in front of you without looking to see if someone is coming, or will just stop in the middle of the sidewalk. plus...i'm merely making an observation from the time i've been here. if you're from toronto and not guilty of pedestrian chicken, take no offense....i'm not irritated by you. :-)

man-ic monday

this man is just dreamy! i love and appreciate the curves of his body.

Sunday, December 16, 2007

snow snow snow

we are buried under inches or centimeters of snow here in toronto. took forever to walk to the theatre for the show today. the roads are bad, and sidewalks are even worse. thankfully, the whole cast made it in, and we actually had a big audience to perform for.

looking forward to a relaxing day off tomorrow.

Saturday, December 15, 2007

off again...

feeling off again. i think it's the weather here. it's been warmer lately, but then the temperature plummeted again last night. when the weather changes so drastically and quickly, it wreaks havoc on my sinuses. my throat hurts again and my nose is stuffy. yuck.

Friday, December 14, 2007

on again...

i got swung on again last night. one of our guys was going through withdrawal from medication that he takes daily. unfortunately, his mom over-nighted his new meds, but they got stuck at the canadian border. so, he called out sick. since i'm the only operational swing....the other one is out with an injury, i got put in the show again. with all the injuries and illnesses, you'd think we were doing 'cats'.

Thursday, December 13, 2007

HNT #35

Happy HNT! Today's a big one for me....#35!

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

plantation house

i spent my day off at the bed and breakfast of my friends gilles and uldis. the place is absolutely beautiful, and i felt like the guest of honor from their hospitality. if you're ever in picton, on and need a place to stay....stay with them!

Saturday, December 08, 2007

my debut

My debutt. My friend Shanna and I jokingly call a debut in a show a debutt (day-butt)'s usually followed by a butt bump or something similar.

Well....tonight I made my debutt with the company of White Christmas. I got thrown in at the last minute for the matinee and was still on for the evening show. It was fun! And, for your viewing pleasure, I posted my other debutt.

Thursday, December 06, 2007

HNT #34

Happy Hanukkah HNT!

I have a little dreidel
I made it out of clay
And when it's dry and ready
Then dreidel I shall play!

Oh - dreidel, dreidel, dreidel
I made it out of clay
And when it's dry and ready
Then dreidel I shall play!

It has a lovely body
With legs so short and thin
And when my dreidel’s tired
It drops and then I win!

My dreidel’s always playful
It loves to dance and spin
A happy game of dreidel
Come play now, let’s begin!

Saturday, December 01, 2007

An old-fashioned smash!

White Christmas is White Hot

Musical gets a stage makeover to become the city's most enjoyable holiday show
Dec 01, 2007 04:30 AM

Theatre Critic

White Christmas

(out of 4)

Music and lyrics by Irving Berlin. Book by David Ives and Paul Blake. Directed by Walter Bobbie. Until Jan. 5 at the Sony Centre for the Performing Arts, 1 Front St. E. 416-872-2262

Would you like your days to be merry and bright?

Then head on over to the Sony Centre, where White Christmas, which officially opened last night, has happily settled in for a Yuletide run.

While it's true that nothing in this world is perfect, I think you're not going to find a more enjoyable show in Toronto this holiday season.

Only a Scrooge or a Grinch could fail to respond to this artful blend of music, dance, comedy and sentiment, delivered, at the preview I attended, with that good ol' Broadway know-how by a talented cast, nearly half of whom are Canadian.

The source material is, of course, the famous 1954 film that starred Bing Crosby and Rosemary Clooney and is an annual "must-see" on everyone's televisions.

But instead of just putting the movie onstage, the creative team behind White Christmas gave it enough of a makeover to glide unassisted into the 21st century and seem – dare I say it? – better than ever.

Don't worry, most of your favourite scenes and songs are there, but the musical has been given a neat nip-and-tuck by David Ives and Paul Blake, who have polished the jokes, rethought some relationships and added some additional great Irving Berlin songs from other shows and films.

It's still 1954, when World War II vets and entertainers Bob Wallace and Phil Davis find themselves spending their Christmas in a Vermont ski lodge, run by the guy who used to be their commanding officer, Gen. Waverly.

Thanks to a premature episode of global warming, there's no snow in supposedly frosty Vermont and the general's resort is going bankrupt.

Enter Wallace and Davis, accompanied by two perky singing sisters, Betty and Judy Haynes, and pretty soon we're into that classic showbiz scenario, "Hey, my general has a barn but no snow, so let's put on a musical."

There's a high-maintenance concierge to nag the crusty ol' codger and a cute (but not cutesy) granddaughter along for the ride.

Everyone goes through some romantic complications but I won't be dishing out any major spoilers if I tell you that everything works out just fine in the end. Hey, it's called White Christmas, after all.

Director Walter Bobbie keeps it all moving slickly and choreographer Randy Skinner's routines (especially the tap ones) have just the right MGM gloss to them. Kudos also to Carrie Robbins for costumes that are so period perfect they manage to be stunning and amusing at the same time.

Best of all is the cast. Bob Wallace (the Crosby role) is played by Peterborough's Graham Rowat, the kind of leading man you thought they didn't make anymore: tall, dark and handsome, with a milk-chocolate baritone and a nice light sense of comedy. Give him a number to sing like "Count Your Blessings" and he's charm personified.

He's paired onstage with his real-life wife, Kate Baldwin, who's ace as Betty Haynes (Clooney's part). Statuesque and stunning, in a wow of a black evening gown, she smoulders her way beautifully through that fine Berlin torch ballad, "Love, You Didn't Do Right By Me."

Tony Yazbeck and Shannon O'Bryan pack a lot of high-energy comedy into their dances as Phil and Judy, and Rod Campbell is priceless as Yankee stagehand Ezekiel. Giving the show a lot of its sparkle is Kate Hennig as the motor-mouthed Martha, performing with such flare you'd never know she stepped in just recently to replace an ailing Nora McLellan.

And Barry Flatman tugs at your heartstrings in just the right way as the gruff but lovable general.

I'll admit that White Christmas is old-fashioned, but I think of what Irving Berlin said when someone levelled that accusation at another one of his shows.

"Sure, it's old-fashioned," he admitted. "A good old-fashioned smash."

So is White Christmas. Don't miss it.